I am 10 days away from my 22nd birthday and it doesn’t quite feel like I should be this old yet. It doesn’t seem like that long ago that I was in high school, learning to drive, discovering my sexuality, or any of those familiar memories. My world has remained fairly stable for the past few years, but I want more from life. I want to reach out and have the world to know who I am. I don’t really know what I want in life, all I know is that I need to become familiar with the world before whatever I decide to do can actually happen. I have feared the outside for way too long.
Unlike a lot of people, I don’t do New Year’s Resolutions, because they aren’t personal to me, but I do sometimes do “birthday resolutions”, stuff I want to accomplish during one year of my existence. Last year I went for exploring my creativity, I think I did OK at that. This year my goal is to become a less angry person. I want to love a little more and hate a lot less.
Overall, I feel like i’m not giving 100% of what is possible towards making my life better, so I want to start putting more energy into being a better person and a little less into being a lazy (angry?) slob.