As I mentioned in a previous post, there are things that do not get mentioned here, they are considered too “private” to share here, but yet I share them with people I know even less about than the primary target audience of this blog. I do not know a lot of people that do not already know about the more private aspects of my life, and anyone new will likely be temporary or will be informed soon enough. I am a very open person when it comes to expressing myself, and sometimes I self censor too much. There was a time I avoided mentioning that I am gay on this blog, but now, a simple Google search of this blog will reveal my sexuality rather quickly. What am I afraid of? Do I think a little kink and perhaps some emotion about it might run people off? There is a wide spectrum of searches that end up with people thrown at one page or another of this site, and honestly, I would much rather come across as myself, not some watered down filtered version of myself. Maybe my fear rests in the idea that no one will be freaked out by my freakyness?
Another topic that has come up for me is the layout of the blog, its a standard MT template with a few customizations, but mostly, its a MT template, and I don’t like that very much. I noticed the other day when looking through some blogger blogs that almost everyone there uses the same template (the black one) and if I were to search a little, I’m sure I would find an ass-load of blogs that use the same style. I don’t like being so unoriginal. Perhaps a task for another day will be to work on giving my blog some personality, other than in text. I have been using more images lately, but that does not seem to be enough to make the blog seem alive.