Today I woke up fairly late in the day and have been having the weirdest mood shifts and changes in objectives. I have a chapter to finish for my novel, I have put in several random attempts at effort on it, for the same course I also have to “explicate a poem”, which I can do, but I just have to pick a poem for it. In addition to those assignments, I also have to finish my perspective drawing to turn it in on Monday, and also draw an orange with full shading and texture in my sketch book. I have been letting all of this go through my head and I am bouncing between thoughts in my head way too quickly. I have considered working on the mid-term for one of my online classes as well, but haven’t started on it (100 questions, all to be done and turned in by April 7th, most likely by UPS).
Other than academic stuff, I have been looking at LiveCurt.net again, working on some stuff for it and trying to get a grasp of what it is supposed to be. I am feeling like I am trying to do a 4 dimensional website in a 2 dimensional space. I have played with Google Analytics some, primarily adding the Art blog to it. I have also been playing with the idea of a centralized location for all of my blogs, which I then realized are all about me, so therefore belong on LiveCurt.net (my domain-registering addiction is foiled again). Oh, and I have been trying to write blog posts on random shit, and pretty much getting no where. I played a game a little while ago, thinking maybe it would calm me down and let me focus, nope, didn’t happen, I’m still bouncing off the walls with stuff to do, but not nearly enough ambition to accomplish any of them.
Finally, I did finish my loop of looking for a digital camera for my course this summer. I still haven’t decided on or purchased one, but I have at least placed a fall-back candidate in my head. If I can’t decide on anything else, then I am going with the Fugifilm FinePix S5200. It isn’t a true SLR camera, but it gives me the functionality I need for the course. SLR cameras are a little scary with how they work. I don’t like the idea of using a camera that has to rotate a mirror to take a picture, but I guess if I find a real SLR camera that I like, I will go for it, although, the S5200 is definitely a piece to drool over.
Today I have done a lot of “half-done” things, but fully completed nothing. Maybe tomorrow will be part 2 and I will get everything done.
Category: General Life
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Randomness, Uncertainty and The Pursuit of Accomplishment
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Not So Disturbing Thoughts
When this blog began in August 2004, my mind was a scary place, full of fears, regrets and things that were just not normal. I still have those types of thoughts from time to time, but lately I have been reflecting on my recent blog entries. My more recent writings have been about personal progress, striving for a better self and just a little bit of everything from my life. There was a time when everything I wrote was more or less a censored version of a personal journal. I feel that over the last few years, my blog has matured, as have the topics which I have selected to discuss. I have been very happy in my life recently and have been finding hope for the future in the strangest places, which I suppose has resulted in me having more blog entries this month than any other month.
With all of these changes, it has me thinking that perhaps the domain doesn’t fit its purpose anymore. Chances are though, I will keep the blog right where it is, just because of its history and the fact that while I have used 3 different primary email addresses (and about 12 axillary email addresses) but only one address for my main blog. Here it was created, here it will stay. -
Workout Buddies are Good to Have
I was worried that when I started this workout routine and made the decision to become fit and to make other positive changes in my life, that I would be alone, and a bit of an outcast among everyone I am in contact with. I am very happy to say that Chris is being very supportive. Chris is encouraging me to workout, is working out with me and has taken a strong interest in making proper nutritional selections. I think that having someone who is this interested in helping me improve myself is going to make the plan a complete success. Also, I think Chris will find that he enjoys working to become more fit himself.
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Happy Birthday to Me
Aside from a variety of friends wishing me happy birthday today, I haven’t had a lot of feeling that is my birthday today, but it was a good day.
I would like to thank all of my friends who acknowledged me today:
Chris, Oscar, Denon, Brian “Curtis” Moss, and David Loder
Thanks guys, you made me feel very special 🙂 -
Instinct
Would the person who decided to send me a subscription to Instinct Magazine please step forward?
I know I am a bit of a perv, but I really don’t need dudes coming to me monthly in the form a magazine… at least not guys that are that gay. There is no information included with the subscription, so I have no clue who the hell did this, and the magazines just sort of appeared suddenly today (two of them, one for last month, one for this month).
I’m a bit freaked out, so if the responsible party will come forward, it will ease my worries a bit.
http://www.instinctmagazine.com if anyone else is curious what showed up in my mail today. -
First Impressions
“first impressions are the most important” is something I have heard all of my life. It is what many people hold to be a strong truth, but in placing so much in them, are we depriving ourselves of a greater understanding of the world? Every person is different and with a more loose social movement occurring it may be harder to understand much about a person when you first meet them. The more I age the more I find that I am usually wrong in my first impressions. It is very easy for a person to give me reason to not like them when I first meet them, but in general I like everybody, once I know a little about them.
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Average Masturbation Per Week
Somehow someone ended up on my blog after searching Google for “average masturbation per week”. The answer wasn’t previously posted on my blog, but I became curious myself, so I did a little research. A survey of 10,000 males returned an average of 6.85 times per week for men between the ages of 20 and 35, decreasing by about 1.2 times per week for every 10 years after.
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Desire for Self Improvement
I have been sitting beside my bookshelf for the past hour while working on various things online, primarily taking care of some course related stuff. The bookshelf sits in this room, usually undisturbed unless I’m pulling something specific from it, usually for research or adding something to it, usually some book I will get to reading eventually.
Directly to my left is the reference section (I own about 3 fiction books, total), which contains numerous books on personal health and fitness. These are books I have been collecting until I can have a plan of attack which includes them and I think I am approaching that point. I don’t work out well because I don’t have a plan, I become bored because all of the exercises that don’t require special equipment are all the same. I am going to change that. First, I think it is time to build a pull-up bar unit outside and it is also a good time to get back into either walking or jogging EVERY night. I have become too stationary again, like so many times before. I work very well when I have a plan and a schedule, so thats what I am going to do. I am going to set goals for myself, based on the United States Marine Corps basic fitness requirements. My longterm goal will be to obtain the highest score possible on these measurable tests. For the short term I intend to use the tests as a guide for where I need to be as far as fitness. Once I have gotten into motion towards the long term goal, I will also add in some other goals, such as working towards my ideal body look. My Polish genetics will be hard to adapt for in this plan, but I am going to do my best. I am fairly short, but almost maximum height for a Pole, so the only thing I can do is work on areas such as my obliques to get my width under control, which shouldn’t be a problem. I can deal with the broad shoulders and wide hip bones as long as my obliques give me some definition.
My guides for this goal will be:
-USMC Guide Book of Essential Subjects (0-967-51236-0)
-Anybody’s Guide to Total Fitness (0-7872-9878-1)
-Men’s Health Hard Body Plan (1-57954-229-8)
-Men’s Health Book of Muscle (1-57954-769-9)
-Complete Book of Abs, The (0-375-75143-2)
-USMC Workout (1-57826-158-9 (maybe, if I get up the balls to do it)
and for balance I will seek guidance from:
-The Perfectible Body: The Western Ideal of Male Physical Development (0-8264-0787-0)
I will spend some time this week preparing for this and then I will begin execution of it no later than next Monday. -
Evaluating the Purpose
Having no other immediate plans for the evening I began work on LiveCurt.net immediately after my last blog post, but in doing so, I have stumbled on some problems. I have to question what my target audience for my website is. Is it for the 3 or 4 individuals who check in on me occasionally through the blog, or is it for a new target? I feel like I have so many skeletons in my closet that I openly reveal on my blog that maybe having my website’s purpose imitate it might not be a good then, but what if the problem is the opposite? Maybe I am too reserved on the blog and the new site should take on a life of its own that is more about who I really am and what I like.
I have gone over several concepts in my head and can’t seem to find one that truly fits into place. I thought about the original “SiteEngine Implementation Plan” for curtis.kularski.net, but that no longer seems right, that just seems annoying and cumbersome. Then another idea popped into my head, several sections utilizing different things to combine data. How unoriginal! I would like to syndicate my blog to the new site, thats a certainty, but I can’t grasp on to whether that should happen as a rolling list of titles, or if I should bring parts of recently blog entries to the page. Additionally, I have considered a news-based role for the main page, something where everything each new blog entry and other items are “announced”. One of the major things I have wanted to do with this is announce new shoes I add to my collection and things like my new tech toys. I want to also get back into writing technical articles like I used to do (killing curtis.pcfire.net will be a must, since its dead already). With this type of thing I run into a few boundaries that I must continue to operate with. My sneaker fetish is something I have gotten used to being pretty much common knowledge among people I interact with, but even though most people I know are very open minded, there is a TMI border I must uphold, after all, there are other sites I have constructed for that type of thing.
My primary goal with this project is to have a refresh of my personal web presence. The main problem is that for the last 3 years, this blog has been my web presence as I have let all of my other sites fall away during my time at university. The people I know now are not always the same people I knew three years ago, there have been some additions and quite a few subtractions. It would seem that my web presence currently is almost without purpose.
Current topics of interest for my new web presence: blog entries, news items, technical articles, creative writing, art, Doom (ZDaemon), garden info, my media library, fitness routines (public jock log), weekly summaries (end of week journal), a few of my favorite things.
This is what I know currently, I suppose now I should take it all and run with it and see where it gets me.
Question of the day:
What is the life expectancy of a blog?
