Category: Random Thoughts

Nothing horribly eventful today. Went to classes, took some tests. Almost fell asleep with Dr. Naieini and his derivations of momentum equations. I had no extreamly brilliant thoughts today, just more of being relaxed and not too tightly wound.
I did come across something that I just found extreamly humorous, the joke itself isn’t internally dirty, but with the proper:
A boss, faced with a business slowdown, had to lay off one of two equally good employees, Debra and Jack. He decided that whoever went to the water cooler for a drink first would get laid off. Debra went first. The boss told Debra, I have to lay you or Jack off…”

Random thought while in Barnard Lab – I really should invest in an MP3 player device. There are sounds and topics in this lab that I really do not want to hear. Music lets me into my own little created world where there is no need to discuss who screwed who over the weekend.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Can today get any weirder? First I had issues with my vehicle on the way to the campus this morning. This displeased me only slightly because it has been acting strangely anyway and was expected.
In Logic I recieved my test back, it was a lower grade than I expected, it was a 90.25, which isn’t too bad, but adds to the general pattern of the day. I am overall doing ok with Logic, but I want to make sure I have an A in the course at the end. I enjoy the course, but today was a day of high stress. I moved on to Physics after Logic, this went better, kinda…. We started with vector quantities and using angles to discover certain details about a problem. This is floating a little over my head and making me feel lightheaded. Physics overall wasn’t that bad today, but I am having the same issues with it as I did in high school. I have to keep reminding myself that I have done this before and I can do it again. English was worse than usual. There was an in-class timed writing done in the form of a reflective essay. I am not certain that mine is even legible, or coherent. I don’t do well with timed writings, especially not when I have to do it by hand. I need to be able to type to effectively use my time for writing.
The trip home was relatively uneventful. When I arrived at home I discovered that FedEx has been operating differently from their normal pattern, a package due for arrival tomorrow, but arrived at their facility early arrived here today. It adds to the oddity of the day, but is a good thing I guess. I also noticed an oddity with the gate when I entered it this afternoon, it wasn’t locked and my father was the last one out. Typically my father always locks anything that can be locked. Upon entering the house and attempting to connect to AIM to chat for a bit I discovered that the AIM network wasn’t allowing me to log in, after a while I could log in but without appearing as being there or having access to by lists. That issue was eventually resolved, but not before I was getting myself close to panic attack status.
Tonight I started on my physics homework that is due Monday. I am having issues recalling how to work with angles to determine 2 dimensional motion. This stuff sucks, I dont want to have to do this. Why didn’t I just sign up for biology or something? Or maybe use Anthropology as my other science and then take Psychology lab to meet that requirement. I have for now stopped with my physics homework until Friday when I can get more of an explanation from Dr. Naeini as to what I am doing. Worst thing this evening is that I managed to frustrate myself by looking for my old high school physics notebook to get assistance from. I couldn’t find it and got irritated, then I felt that I needed chocolate, none is availible in this house, my mother has even depleted her spare supply. I have now calmed down a bit and can now get agitated over the Abnormal Psychology test tomorrow, this should be fun.

Ever notice that no matter what your file structure is never exactly perfect? I just went to prepare to post the screen shots, then I realize d that my structures make no sense. I have to navigate to CMK4’s main web server drive to do the action. Shouldn’t I just point to Z:\public_html? I think I need to remap some stuff at some point.

In my past few blog entries I have mentioned my changing life, how things will no longer be the same for me. I have been generally very selfish in my observation of the changes. For me things will be different because of independance, strange schedules and the possibility for a lot more social interaction. For my parents the change will be more dramatic, I will be out of the house more, be around a lot of new people and generally be more away from their life. There is a mental/attitude change which many college students are said to go through during their first year not being directly conncected to home, if this is the case my parents are in for a lot of suprises. I function as tech support for my family, they rely on me. the status-quo is no more, after 17 years of fairly predictable behavior (give ’em two years credit, they aren’t psycic) they can’t count on that anymore. As for changes for the rest of my family, my aunt can probably look forward to me being around her more often, simply because I will be in the area more. Some changes happen because they must, such as me growing up and my predictability being broken. Others happen because they can, such as me having more time to myself and me being able to be happier with myself. There are also things that never change, such as my relationships with my friends. My best friend Chris is the most reliable example of this, I can always count on him. I look forward to being able to come home and be able to call him and still have that familiarity, the one unchanging variable of my life. My weekends will end up being my only escape from most of the changes, and after a while I will probably be affected by the changes so greatly that it won’t matter anymore and my new college-educated self will appear.
One of the more interesting things to do when change occurs is to watch for external changes, changes in other people, whether as a result of you or not. We as humans are not designed to be static characters, we change each day. Some of us adapt to things in our environments, others simply learn something new and use it to its fullest to improve their lives. The nature of the universe is fairly uncertain to us wee creatures on this tiny speck of a globe that we call home. We percieve things most of the time as having width, height and depth only, but what about the temporal directions? For all we know the reality we percieve is merely the other side of a decision to be made, one of many thousand possibilities. In the analysis of time we see our time as the “main timeline”, but can we really justify calling ours the primary? Arent all of the timelines equally important? Changes occur in time by simply changing a direction of something, the infinite list of what ifs that placed us on this time track were merely changes. With things such the begining of time we must ask ourselves if it is truely the begining. Is it our begining of time only? Do all timelines have the same starting point? If we said yes, then we would have to conclude that the begining of time and the universe (for the sake of document structure, lets call big bang the begining) relied on the single event occuring at the exact moment in which it did, if not it wouldn’t have been the begining. Thats where we get into different time lines again though, if it was an option for time to begin when it did, then it would have to be contained within another timeline, going back to an infinitely far away point of time 0. Maybe not everything has to have a begining and an end, even at the end of our solar universe when earth is swallowed by our sun turning giant, the timeline(s) still remain. Maybe we don’t exist after all?